I have been trying really hard to get in more control since I recently went to see a G.I.
doctor a few weeks ago, but it never leaves my mind. It drives me crazy
whenever I lay down at night I think about whether or not I checked a
minimum of four times a day and if I didn't I swear to myself I won't
forget again. I struggle with the on going thought in my mind like a
farris wheel: did you check, did you shoot, are you high. are you, low.
is this hunger or am I low do I have a legit reason to be pissed or am I
high. How many carbs were in that larabar package I threw away. I
often wonder about my future what will this do to me, will it be the
reason I can do nothing or that I do everything. So even though my
control at this point is not terrific it is better than it has been but
it is driving my crazy but I hope it doesn't drive me to burnout again.