Diabetes and a Diet- Day 1

"I am not going for skinny I am going for fit."

       This is what I  promised myself when I decided to go on a diet, not to totally deprive myself and aim for a super thin self, but a healthy self something I have struggled with all through high school and here I am at the end doing something for my self at last. 
      Diets get a lot of stigma and even I hate to hear about women who go on diets when they don't need to. I am much like many modern women today in that I want the trim, defined and toned body and get my cake and pizza too.  How wonderful it would be to eat what I want, not exercise, and take a magic pill which magically helps the weight fall off, without any effort. As a society I think people have become so lazy that they aren't willing to do the hard stuff to get what we want, we want quick, easy, and no sweat or tears. I myself had fallen into that trap as well but new that I needed to change my habits in order to get the fit body I really wanted. (stepping down from soap box)
      I am determined to get in good enough shape to be able to easily do a 7 mile hike around a popular lake near my hometown, kayak for couple hours straight, and do a color run in October. Those are a few goals I have but mostly I don't want any flub when I buy that bikini to wear this summer.
     I do have a goal weight for myself which will include me losing 21 lbs. I feel like that is such a big goal to reach for but I will go for losing 2-4 lb a week. So if I am consistent  with these numbers I should be around  my goal weight in five to six weeks.
    Determined I am, to get to a confident body and fit back into those skinny jeans and that sweet navy dress, both of which are  teensy bit too tight. I also have grabbed my sister, mother, and best friend along for the ride.
    Do you as a diabetic struggle with weight loss or have any tips for being successful I want to hear them.

6 Healthy Snacks...

Healthy snacks are something I struggle with, I would rather eat oreos over apple slices any day of the week but lets face it, we can't always say no (okay maybe you can but not me). This week has been cray cray busy and I really haven't had time to grab an afternoon snack everyday to tide me over til 7 or 8. I have been making a mental list of foods that are yummy and semi-healthy. I have found some things that I love, things that require a small amount of work and some that require a ripping of a package. I think this list is great, it isn't carb free or always even low carb but trust me they are a nice variation to cheese sticks and peanut butter.

York Patties-
I love these, in fact I have chosen this candy over other for the simple reason of less fat. It is not fat free (gross) but low fat which while I'm trying to lose the winter pudge is a great choice.

Pita with provolone-
This is a very yummy snack. It honestly reminds me of cheese sticks that come with pizza. First toast the pita with two provolone slices on top  let the cheese get bubbly and brown and pull out of the oven or toaster oven and slice into eight triangles, dip in pizza sauce.

Carrots and Salsa-
One of my super healthy friends taught me this trick. Slice a few carrots into disc slices and dip in salsa of your choice. It is a really yummy low calorie, low carb, low fat snack that is also great for company and travels well.

Rice cakes and peanut butter-
Oh my this snack reminds me of Camp Kudzu. Take a rice cake smear some creamy peanut butter on it or eat them separately and you have a yummy protein packed snack with low carbs. This is a good Saturday night movie snack too I sometimes treat myself to a few chocolates too and by a few I mean two not the whole bag. this snack keeps me from plummeting in the night or spiking, I love it.

Wraps-
Oh yum-o I love a wrap sandwich. I take either a spinach wrap or wheat and spread some cream cheese on it and  top with deli meat and cheese. This baby has got protein and veggies if you choose the spinach wrap. these average about 30 carbs each

Frozen Yogurt
I found these snack size frozen yogurts at the store the other day in the ice cream aisle and they are so creamy and rich and every diabetics dream per-measured so no cheating. I got the blueberry but there was also chocolate and strawberry. I think they were like fifteen to twenty carbs a serving .

My Way or No Way

I have fought the need to have the perfect body my whole life. I have always been super thin like not in a healthy way. When I was first daignosed with diabetes at age nine I wieghed a measley 56 pounds. People always talked about how lucky I was to be so skinny and that I didn't need to worry about my wieght. I liked the way I was because for so long that is what poeple had made a big deal about me.
I am 17 years old and  my insulin to carb ratio is 1:5, wow that is low and yes I averege 12-15 units of insulin per meal (60 carbs is 12 units) I can't seem to get that 1:5 up because all this insulin is making me gain wieght and fast. I could do what I have done in the past, which is quit taking insulin all together (not a good idea) and lose wieght quick but I won't do that. I know very well that it isn't good for my body and that sooner or later it will literally kill me.
I have always tried to keep a positive self image about my body in  a world where everything is throwing at me YOU AREN'T GOOD ENOUGH!
Someone I love dearly recently told my mom that I had put on a bit of wieght. This first infuriated and I was instantly offended. Do these people not understand that I was a good twenty pounds under wieght for years and that I take a tremendous amount of insulin to cover the smallest amounts of food. Plus why is everyone so obsessed with being so skinny  and why do so many people feel like they need to tell me that I am not as skinny as I used to be. If people knew what I have done to myself in the past because of weight issues they wouldn't ever say anything. Mostly it is heart breaking, I know I am going to struggle with this my whole life, many of the women in my family struggle with thier wieght and maintaining it. I want to be happy and healthy maybe that is to much and hey maybe all of you who feel like it is your place to tell me I'm not a skinny barbie doll; bug off and mind your own business I will do this my way. Thanks for the ranting time:))