Video post, follow me...

I have a You Tube account and I did my first video ever and I am really psyched about it. I know I look a little scary and I did not smile all that much. In fact at the  point where I inserted my site I said "How do I take it out!" haha . You can't hear me on the video but for that second it totally left my mind. Enjoy........

I hope you liked it. If anybody has anymore ideas of videos that I could do, that could be beneficial to anyone especially those with diabetes. Me and mom are working on an interesting and funny one. I would really like some input and don't forget to like it, or comment or heck I don't really  care I'm just super excited about it.

ABout that cure...

      I am okay. I am Okay with the fact that I might never see a  cure. When it comes around I will be very happy, ecstatic, overjoyed, I might even pass out, but you know what I have come to terms that I very well  might be doing this for the rest of my life.
      Its hard to imagine that, that for the rest of my life I will be counting every carb, adding up every unit of insulin, be hospitalized a few times, be exercise conscience everyday.  I willl be doing it everyday for the rest of my life.

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Thats a lot and I could add more to that list...

      For the rest of my life checking ketones, pricking my fingers over and over till they're raw, think of low carb low fat foods to eat, wondering if I need to lose weight for insulin sensitivity, worrying if I am sensitive enough, am I starting to resist my insulin, should I check now or wait till I really feel low, buying low treaters, never enjoying a regular soda, Always being prepared, prescriptions glucogons, syringes, newest insulin...

      I am exhausted of always worring about the people who worry about me. I don't want them to worry but how can they not, they think of my future in ways it makes me cry to think about, I need them.

      

So yes I want a cure and it is the greatest thing ever but I think I'll be fine without it till it comes. And let me tell you why. Diabetes is trying, consuming, and sometimes defeating, I struggle with its terms of agreement everyday of my life, fighting, I don't want to give in and I won't, not till that cure comes in. I am okay without a cure but I desperately need one, because this body might not last forever.

Reasons Control sucks

the little things.

  I have been trying really hard to get in more control since I recently went to see a G.I. doctor a few weeks ago, but it never leaves my mind. It drives me crazy whenever I lay down at night I think about whether or not I checked a minimum of four times a day and if I didn't I swear to myself I won't forget again. I struggle with the on going thought in my mind like a farris wheel: did you check, did you shoot, are you high. are you, low. is this hunger or am I low do I have a legit reason to be pissed or am I high. How many carbs were in that larabar package I  threw away. I often wonder about my future what will this do to me, will it be the reason I can do nothing or that I do everything.  So even though my control at this point is not terrific it is better than it has been but it is driving my crazy but I hope it doesn't drive me to burnout again.                                                                                                  

Exercise and diabetes

     I honestly hate intentional get outside and sweat exercise. I would rather read a book, make jewelry, make cupcakes, do my homework than exercise. But once again my body has every intention of make my day a little hard. I decided what the heck! I'll start exercising if it will help me control my sugar levels. Like I said in the last blog I will cut the crap out of my life and do what I have to do. But as always I need to do a little research on the subject but hey I probably already know everything rigggghhhhhtttt, WRONG!
      So apparently there is more science than just average brain know how. Ok so it turns out I already knew a whole lot about exercising but I didn't ever know how to do my own exercising that would benefit me the most or what to do when I got out there ( or in there if you are going to a gym.) To me it always was do it because it will help you regulate your blood sugar and keep you fit but I have always been a procrastinator ( research motivates me; I know I'm weird.)
     The three general types of exercise are heart, muscle, and flexibility. And they do a whole lot for me and my fellow diabetics. The heart exercises help your;you guessed it your heart, circulation, and respiratory systems. Our hearts are a tiny bit more fragile and need extra care. We really need to keep our cholesterol levels below 100 because we are at risk for our blood vessels thickening around our hearts even at young age. Exercising our heart is one way to keep it healthy here is a list of ways to get your heart pumpin':
     1. Zumba! I love, love Zumba it is an awesome way to get a workout in, sweat a lot, and have a blast.
     2. Walking. Skip the well traveled park and go somewhere fun. Maybe it a small town with tons of cool shops, or a hiking trail; just don't forget your water.
     3. Rollerblading. Yes this is an oldie but it is coming back with a bang. Once you get the hang of it you could join a roller derby plus doing this could burn 900 calories an hour. Whoohooo strap 'em on and get going.
    4.Swimming. Who doesn't love to swim it fun, refreshing, and you don't sweat. I you don't know how to swim enroll your self in a swim class or let your children take swimming lessons at the community pool. For kids it is a good idea for safely too and it is very rewarding for them.
    5.Jump Rope. I love to jump rope. It reminds me of elementary school. Get a group of kids together and do competitions ( don't forget prizes). Or grab your self a rope and see how far you can go and everyday add on more You will be shock how far you can get your body to go when you train it.This site give more information on diabetes and heart health, I found it very interesting

    Flexibility training and strength training is good for your whole body. You tone muscle, increase circulation to your joints, and increase your stamina. Having well toned muscles, less fat, good circlation is good for diabetics because bad circulation is what causes amputation and strong, plus you just have a lot of needed energy. Here ar some types of flex, and strength training.
     1. Yoga, You knew it was coming, but this form of eercising burns tons of calories, calms your ming and increases your core strength.
     2.Ballet. What momma doesn't love to see little girls in their leotards and tutus and dance. I do ballet three times a week and have become increasingly stronger and flexable. I always break a good sweat and love how good it makes me feel. They do offer adult beginner classes so your don't feel like the only stumbling giraffe in a graceful swan world.
     3. Karate. This one is good aerobics and flex, and strength training. So fun great for self protection, discipline, and little boys love it.
    One way I have found to exercise is a dance class. I take it at school, so five times a week I get to have so much fun with friends, learn choreography, and get in my strength, flex, and cardio training I need. Everyone can find something they love to do so it isn't so hard tomake yourself get off the couch.

Me, Erik, and Mercy on a hiking trip spring break  2010

       I think I will go work out now that I have learned all this stuff about my cholesterol levels, heart problems I'm at risk for and how it will effect my blood sugars ( in a good way this time.)